To be honest, this month was hard. Harder than I ever thought it would be. God really had a funny way of showing me to put my trust in Him this month. It started the first week we were here in Cambodia. I was feeling under the weather and homesick one day so my team gathered around and prayed for me. I woke up that night soaked in sweat, congested and had a 102 degree fever. I felt miserable for a few days. And I kept asking “Why God? Why me? Why now, when I’m trying to do your work in the middle of Cambodia on the other side of the world?” But God kept saying “Trust me. I am here.” Psalm 46:1 says “God is our refuge and strength, an ever-present help in trouble.” He is here with us whenever we need Him. Apparently I needed to figure that out. The third week in Cambodia, I cut my finger while cutting a piece of bread. The amount of blood practically made me pass out. And I’m so thankful for my teammates Meghan (nursing major) and Adrienne for bandaging me up. But again, I’m asking “Why God? Why me? Why now?” And God keeps saying “I am here. I love you. Trust me.” God definitely does give you more in life than you can bear. If you were able to bear life on your own, then why would you need God? He wants you to lean on Him for strength because He loves you. This month felt like tough love from God, but He is faithful. Always. His love is unending and unconditional, whether you love and trust Him back or not. My eyes are opened to God’s unending faithfulness and how He sees me in His eyes.
“But the Lord is faithful, and he will strengthen you and protect you from the evil one.” – 2 Thessalonians 3:3
If we are faithless, he remains faithful, for he cannot disown himself. – 2 Timothy 2:13
